Monday, December 1, 2008

competition and fear


Competition and fear seem to be two driving forces that seem to be driving the humanity these days...
And my take on both was contrary to mass opinion and behavior.... And yet again I fail to comprehend why?

Do I face competition?.... that was the question.... and it forced me to ponder...
I don’t... I had never faced any competition...
There isn’t a specific reason why.... maybe I never had anything to prove ...
There wasn’t a substantial threat to my existence... maybe I was always accepted and celebrated.... all my peers were so close to my heart to have any substantial competition with them... all loved me so that I wished best for them even that wasn’t in my personal benefit...
I also wonder why I wasn’t much frightened (I guess I wasn’t frightened at all) when the terror struck our city...
My dear ones had very narrow escape ... the place I love as architect was shattered... I felt I was close to loose everything that I have and yet I am not scared... may be its true that I am not emotional... towards myself and others... maybe its true that this world doesn’t effect me... as much as it effects others...

May be I am too insane to be human... maybe I don’t value human existence

2 comments:

Sonia Gaud said...

I guess you don't face competition coz you've always been on the top ;-)

and you weren't afraid, because terror is not new to Mumbai.

loving soul said...

dont know... recently i had been accused of being insensitive to the extent of being insane